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  ONLY YOU

  by Marie Landry

  Copyright 2018 Marie Landry

  Cover designed by Marie Landry/Sunrise Author Services

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  TABLE OF CONTENTS

  Also by Marie Landry

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Epilogue

  Letter to the reader

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  ALSO BY MARIE LANDRY

  Blue Sky Days

  The Game Changer

  The Most Wonderful Time of the Year

  Waiting for the Storm (Angel Island #1)

  After the Storm (Angel Island #2)

  Take Them by Storm (Angel Island #3)

  Something in the Air

  Mistletoe Kiss

  Maybe You (coming February 2019!)

  DEDICATION

  For Mum. Always. No words can ever properly express how grateful I am to have you as my best friend.

  For Krista, the Bridget to my Ivy, my adventure buddy, my soul sister.

  And for my friends in the bookstagram community. Ivy is a book nerd, so it only seems fitting to dedicate this book to the people who are as passionate about books as she is. You all amaze and inspire me every day.

  CHAPTER ONE

  One perk of your best friend also being your boss: she sees when you’re stressed to the max and tells you to cut out of work a few hours early.

  I hardly know what to do with myself as I push through the doors of the high-rise building where Quest Marketing Solutions is housed. Should I go shopping? Get my nails done? Head to the bookstore, aka heaven on earth? As tempting as browsing books is, the only truly appealing thing is a nice warm bath in an empty apartment. And if I want to do that, my window of opportunity is small.

  Alone time has become a novelty in the last few months since I reluctantly took in a roommate. Celia is one of those ‘cousins’ who’s not an actual relative; her parents are good friends with the aunt and uncle who raised me after my parents were killed in a car accident, and our families spent a lot of time together. Between a six-year age difference and Celia’s general snarkiness, we never connected. That didn’t stop me from agreeing to perform my family duty when my aunt informed me Celia was moving back to town after dropping out of college, and then not-so-subtly suggested I offer to rent her the spare room in my apartment. Fan Chen is not someone you say no to, even when she’s living halfway across the world in China and I’m here in Canada.

  I try to live my life with no regrets, but saying ‘yes’ to Aunt Fan that day and extending an invitation to Celia has caused nothing but regrets. Big ones. Endless ones. In the last four months, Celia has had three different jobs, all of which she’s been fired from for various reasons, including being surly with customers and failing to perform the tasks required of her. When we’re at home, she’s constantly bitching about something, plus she eats my food even though she has her own. Some days I feel like I’m one snide remark away from wringing her neck.

  Alone time is definitely the way to go right now. For my sanity and for everyone else’s personal safety.

  When I reach my car, I toss my purse in the passenger seat and blast the heater. It’s only early November, but there’s a nip in the air that makes me think Mother Nature has forgotten it’s still technically autumn.

  Something shiny catches my eye, and I bend to pick up a gum wrapper from the floor. Celia seems to think my car is a garbage receptacle. Our schedules don’t often mesh (thank god), so she grudgingly takes the bus most of the time. Whenever I do give her a ride anywhere, she inevitably leaves a mess for me to clean up—coffee cups, gum and granola bar wrappers, and that memorable time she left a chocolate bar on the backseat in August and it melted into a sticky brown puddle. I discovered it after setting my reusable cloth grocery bags on top of it. The chocolate never did come out, and I refuse to carry around a bag that looks like it has a poop stain on it.

  During the ten minute drive home, I make a plan. Celia should be home around seven, so I need to maximize every blessed moment of my alone time. First, I’m going to have a bath. I’ve been showering since the first week Celia moved in and informed me, lip curled in disgust, that having a bath was like stewing in your own filth. I’ve been hoarding the luxury strawberry-champagne bath bomb my best friend Bridget gave me ages ago, waiting for a Celia-free moment to finally use it. Next, I’ll pour myself a glass of wine—because I’ve never been above day drinking—and then I’ll soak in the tub until I’m all pruny and fruity smelling. After that, I’ll squeeze in a bit of TV if I have time.

  I pull into the parking lot of my apartment building and hurry up to the third floor, smiling to myself the whole way. My smile fades as I reach my door and hear the TV inside. I unlock the door and shove it open. There, on the couch, is Celia, wrapped in a fluffy blue housecoat—my housecoat, if I’m not mistaken—with the TV playing some crime show, and her bare feet elevated on the coffee table.

  My dreams of a nice relaxing afternoon pop like the soap bubbles I won’t be seeing any time soon. Holding back a groan, I close the door with more force than intended, causing Celia to jump and whip around.

  “Jeeze, you scared me!” She clutches her chest dramatically.

  “Why are you home so early?” I ask, dumping my purse unceremoniously on the floor. The excitement of leaving work and envisioning a few hours alone has drained from my body, leaving me feeling wilted.

  A flash of guilt passes over Celia’s features before she turns back to the TV. “Oh, you know, they let me leave early today. Why are you home so early?”

  Ignoring her question, I say, “They fired you, didn’t they?”

  Her shoulders slump. Without looking at me, she reaches for the remote to mute the TV. “They started playing Christmas music today, Ivy.”

  I wait for her to elaborate. When she doesn’t, I say, “Okay…and?”

  Celia huffs out an annoyed breath. “It’s practically the beginning of November! They were playing the same songs over and over. This woman in my line mentioned how she’d heard whatever song was on twice already since being in the store. So I said it was way too early for them to be playing Christmas songs. As she was nodding along, all agreeable, I might have mentioned something about how Christmas isn’t a real holiday anyway because Christians stole Yule from the Pagans and turned it into a Christian holiday, and most modern-day Christmas traditions are actually Pagan ones in disguise.” She says all of this quickly until her last few words are running together and she’s out of breath.

  “Celia.” I groan, letting my head fall back against the front door. “You didn’t.”

 
“The woman seemed to think it was funny!” Her voice pitches higher with each word. “She was nodding and laughing, and then I guess the bitch went and reported me to the manager afterward.”

  I let the ‘bitch’ comment slide; I’m a big believer in choosing your battles, and I have more important things to consider right now. “Didn’t we talk about how you can’t say things like that to people? I warned you and the store warned you when they saw your previous employment record. They were willing to give you a chance and you blew it two weeks in! Nobody will want to hire you now. You know that, right?”

  Despite still sitting with her back to me, I imagine she’s doing one of her patented eye rolls. “Well, whatever. Maybe I’ll just be a lady of leisure.”

  “And live off what? How are you going to pay rent and bills without a job? And buy food?” I stop myself just short of saying ‘And save up enough money to get a place of your own?’ This arrangement of ours is supposed to be temporary. Celia’s parents thought I’d be a good influence on the wayward twenty-three-year-old and could help get her life together. They refused to let her move back home, and she couldn’t afford to live on her own, which is why she’s currently residing in my spare room and casting a pall over my entire life.

  “I’ve got a bit of money saved for bills and stuff. And besides, you can afford this place without my share of the rent. You’ve been living here on your own for years.”

  My blood pressure spikes. I can feel the blood surging through my veins. My vision blurs, and for a moment I wonder if it’s possible for a person’s head to actually explode. “No,” I say through clenched teeth. “Absolutely not. I’m not going to be some kind of sugar mama while you laze around all day. Not happening. You moved to town to work and save money so you could either go back to school or find a job you can stick with, and that’s what you’re going to do.”

  A bead of sweat rolls down my temple, and only now do I realize I’m still wearing my coat, scarf, and boots. I shuck them all and snatch my purse from the floor. “I’m going to take a bath,” I announce, striding as fast as my short legs will carry me toward the bathroom.

  “Ivy,” Celia calls.

  “I don’t want to hear it, Celia! I don’t know how dirty you think I must be, but a bath is not ‘stewing in your own filth’ if you bathe regularly like I do.” I slam the bathroom door and sit on the toilet lid, dropping my head into my hands. “Deep breaths,” I murmur to myself, massaging my temples and sucking in air like my life depends on it.

  Shoving my hands into my hair, I start removing the pins from my updo. Celia and I look enough alike it’s easy to believe we could be related. We have the same shade of almost-black hair, although mine has a bit of wave to it while hers is stick-straight. We also have similar brown eyes and were blessed with a clear complexion. But where Celia is easily identified as Chinese-Canadian, my mother’s Caucasian genes dominated my dad’s Asian roots. I’ve been referred to as ‘exotic’ and asked what country I come from more times than I can count.

  I open the cabinet under the sink and pull out the toiletry bag where I keep my more expensive items, like my special occasion makeup, scented oils, and a few other things. Things like my bath bomb, which is now missing from where it was nestled between my glittery eye shadow and my manicure set. As I’m reaching for the medicine cabinet to see if it somehow ended up in there, my gaze catches the reflection of the bathtub in the mirror over the sink. The curtain is askew, and the tub has a pink ring around it. Pink, like the very expensive, have-been-saving-it-forever bath bomb that’s no longer where it should be.

  “Celia!”

  CHAPTER TWO

  “I can’t believe you’re still pissed about the bath bomb,” Celia grumbles as she buckles her seatbelt.

  It’s the next morning and I’m heading to work with Celia in tow. She has a meeting at the employment agency later today—a meeting I fear she’ll be laughed out of since they’ve helped her acquire each of the three jobs she’s been fired from so far. In the meantime, I don’t want her getting any more ideas about that whole ‘lady of leisure’ thing. Lounging around the apartment watching my TV, eating my food, and using my things while I work hard is not happening.

  Lost in thought, I forget to respond until Celia huffs out a breath. “I’ll buy you a new one, Ivy. Sheesh.”

  “That’s not the point.” I jam the key in the ignition and twist it hard, the engine firing to life. “You can’t just take stuff that’s not yours. I don’t mind sharing, but you seem to have a penchant for the things that are specifically mine. Like my Greek yogurt you claim to hate and yet at least three times a week there’s mysteriously one less than the day before. Or my favorite sweater you stretched to hell because you pull on the sleeves to cover your hands.” I glance over at her hands in her lap to see they’re completely covered by her sleeves, which stretch several inches below the cuffs of her jacket. “Then the bath bomb, after you go on and on about how disgusting baths are. I just don’t get you. Are you trying to drive me crazy?”

  She makes a disgusted sound in the back of her throat. “Yes, Ivy, I’m secretly gaslighting you so you’ll snap and I can step into your wonderful life. Perfect job, perfect apartment, perfect best friend.” She says that last bit in a high singsong voice.

  My hands clench the steering wheel tighter. Despite her flippant tone, I wouldn’t be surprised if she’s only half kidding. “Anyway, it’s the principle of it. I don’t take your things without asking, so extend the same courtesy to me, okay?”

  God, I hate how school-marmy I sound. My aunt was the Queen of Lectures; even though I tried my hardest to always do what I was told and follow the rules, it was never good enough. She resented having to take me in when I was twelve, and she never made any effort to hide her displeasure. Maybe that’s why she insisted Celia come to live with me. She saw it as some sort of karmic retribution for me being forced on her all those years ago. Who knows, but right now I feel like I’m channeling her and that thought makes me shudder.

  “I won’t take your stuff anymore,” Celia says, her tone surprisingly contrite now. “Or I’ll at least ask first.” She jerks her sleeves farther down over her hands, drawing my eyes back to her sweater. My sweater. The buttery-soft blue one with sparkly silver threads woven through the material. My eyes snap to Celia’s face. The forced, guilt-ridden smile plastered there makes me groan. “Starting now,” she says quickly. “And with my first paycheck from my new job, I’ll buy you a new bath bomb and a new sweater.”

  A sigh escapes me. This time instead of channeling my aunt, I attempt to find my inner Elsa as I chant my new mantra over and over in my head: Let it go. Let it go.

  *****

  I set Celia up in an empty conference room with a stack of envelopes that need labels affixed to them. The office has people who do miscellaneous odd jobs like this, but I need something to keep Celia busy and hopefully out of trouble until her meeting in a few hours.

  I check on her several times throughout the morning. Despite appearing bored each time I poke my head in, she stays put and does her assigned task. Maybe this is the type of job Celia needs—something solitary, away from other people. The girl should come with a warning label: Does not work well with others. I’m not sure if she purposely tries to be offensive or if it’s just her nature, but she seems to annoy people wherever she goes.

  Her parents were the opposite of my aunt and uncle, which always made me wonder how they could be friends. Where my guardians were strict to the point of being oppressive, Celia’s parents let her get away with anything. There were few rules and even less structure in the Guan household, and Celia was rarely punished for misbehaving. It’s ironic how the Guans did nothing about their daughter’s out-of-control behavior most of her life, yet when she continued making poor choices into adulthood, they decided they’d had enough. That’s how I ended up with the roommate from hell and feeling like I’m constantly policing her or scolding her.

  When lunchtime rolls arou
nd, I peer through Bridget’s office window and see she’s on the phone. She spots me and slumps forward, her dark hair falling around her shoulders. She points to the phone with an exaggerated cringe. By now, I know this means we won’t be having lunch together. Again.

  Trying not to feel dejected, I head to the conference room and find Celia scrolling through her phone. “Wanna grab a quick bite before your meeting? My treat.”

  “Sure.” She gathers all the envelopes she labeled and deposits them in the bin I left for her. “Any chance of that not being free labor?”

  “Nope. Consider it part of the payment for what you owe me.” I smile as I say it, wanting her to know I’m kidding—mostly—and have gotten over the stolen bath bomb. Plus two ruined sweaters.

  She rolls her eyes, but her lips quirk slightly. “Fine. I guess that’s fair.” She joins me at the door and we make our way to the elevators. “Okay, so if I won’t get paid for that, how about an actual paying job? That was boring as shit, but I could do it every day if I got paid. Or I could be a gopher. Fetch coffee for people, do photocopying, sort mail. Or you could teach me the ropes and I could work for your marketing team.”

  Swallowing a sigh, I jab the down button when we reach the elevators. “We’ve been through this, Celia. You’ve never worked in an office environment and you have no marketing experience. If you go back to school and get a diploma or a degree, I’d be willing to put in a good word. Until then…” I don’t mention working together and living together would probably send me over the edge.

  The elevator arrives and we step inside. Celia stands as far away from me as possible, with her arms crossed and her face set in a petulant pout. When we arrive on the first floor, she pushes ahead to get off first, and then whirls around to face me. “Since you won’t get me a job here—”

  “Can’t, Celia,” I interrupt. “Can’t, not won’t. Let’s just make that distinction clear before you go on making me the bad guy.”